Throughout this entire pregnancy I have been this ill hornet. Snapping at the least little thing, threatning to choke people, and I've developed road rage. But this morning, as I was hanging somemore of Allie's clothes up, the thought came in my head, I'm about to have another baby. I mean I saw me holding her and I began to cry my eyes out. I had to go sit down and watch some t.v.
What the crap was that about? It's not like this is new, I'm only 24 days away from delivery. I've seen sonogram pictures, felt her move, kick and heard her heartbeat. Why all of a sudden did it just dawn on me that I'm going to have a baby? What made it so real?
Right now, she is pushing as if she is trying to come out of my belly button. I'm wondering if she sees light through there...lol Maybe I'm sleep deprived. Which isn't true, I fell asleep last night before 8:30. And only got up twice to go to the bathroom.
I wonder if other mothers to be have felt like this? I don't remember feeling that with Logan. I also don't remember being this scared of the c-section. I suppose that has to do with the fact that I had never had one and didn't know what to expect. I know now, and that should make it less scary, right?
Well, it's lunch time, I'll contemplate this as I eat some tuna salad and crackers.
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