8 weeks old

Alot has happened this past weekend. Allie had her first sleep over at her Nanny's house. We did the same thing with Logan. I don't want to have one of those clinging on kids. You know the ones who refuse to let their parents out of their sight. This is hard on everyone, I speak from experience. I teach 2 year olds at church. Well, I will again the first Sunday in Jan.

I called the Dr. about Allie being fussy and way too gassy on Friday. By the time I was called back the doctor was gone and we had to wait until today to get her formula changed again. So, here we go again. This is her fourth one and she is only 2 months old. Let's pray this one works. I am so tired. It's like an act of Congress to get a simple formula change.

Logan is doing better in school since we took everything away from him. He is slowly gaining his stuff back.

Well, Miss Fussypants needs me.

Christmas is done!

Other than getting food, we are done shopping! Starting next week, we (Logan and I) are going to be fixing our candy. We usually do this every year. Peanut butter fudge, banana bread, candy coated pretzles... such as that.

I love this time of year. It was in the 40's early this week, and nearly 70 yesterday, and snow, maybe, for tomorrow night! I love the south.

Allie is doing well, she is smiling up a storm. Logan is doing good. We signed him up for basketball at school today. It starts in Jan. He's kinda excited. I see so much of me in him. He's shy and has trouble making friends. He just wants someone to play with. It makes me angry that kids are the way they are.

Bo has got a new job, maybe. He has hardly worked in the past 3 weeeks. My unemployment was stopped, maternity leave I guess you could call it. But the Good Lord has taken care of us.

I just wanted to put another picture on here. Hope ya'll like it!

6 week check up

Allie had her check up yesterday. Her stats: 11 lbs. 13 oz. 22 1/4 in. And doing great!

The doctor changed her formula, she is now trying Similac Sensitive AE. I thought she wasn't going to tolerate it well. She threw up, not spit up, on the first 3 bottles. She has been fine since then though.

Logan had an appointment later that afternoon. His stats are: 4 ft. 6 in. and 69 lbs. He is so amazing. He doesn't think twice about going to see Dr. Valle. He likes him. I'm not sure he knows what kind of doctor he is, but that's ok, he'll know one day.

Allie's clothes are fitting her better, the newborn stuff is too small. She is in the 0-3 months stuff good now.

Finally my update. I had my 6 week check up, and all is well. I was released to go back to work, but no work to go back to. I've still got 15 weeks on unemployment left. That's pretty good. I wanted to be with Allie longer anyway. I'm still looking for a job though. I've got a resume in for the Depot, the local hospital and another home health agency. So, hopefully something will come through.

That's the updates for now.

Baby girl!

It's hard to believe that Allie is already a month old. How awesome is that? She is eating every 2 to 3 hours, and about 3-4 ounces at a time. She is still fussy and gassy. I go for my 6 week check up on Monday and she goes on Wednesday.

We are going to have our Christmas pictures made this Friday. We met "nanny" at the mall today and we got Daddy and Logan a new shirt, I already have one, and me some pants. I had to try them on and I fell great about the size. I don't remember the last time I was a size 14. It feels pretty dog gone good.

I just need to keep it up. But, I've been eating sweets and some carbs since Allie was born. I've just got to keep up with my "diet" and walking.

Logan is home from school now, so I'd better go!

4 weeks old

My how time flies. Allie is 4 weeks old today. She'll be a month old on Thursday. Hard to believe. We took her to the doctor on Friday. She has acid reflux. She is taking Zantac 3 times a day. It has helped so much. She isn't crying while she feeds anymore. She still screams her head off when she has a poopy diaper. Which isn't a bad thing. Maybe she will potty train easier that way.

I went Christmas shopping today. I didn't get anything. With me not working and my unemployment stopped until I go back to the doctor, things are tough right now. Bill are coming first. Which seems to be a never ending process. It seems like we get one paid and two more come in. But I am not going to complain. Things could be worse. Alot worse.

I got a call from someone who had my resume and told me to call when I was released back to work about a job. Full time. I hope it works out. I hate to leave Allie, but I'd rather be working and helping out with the bills. It just makes things easier when both of us are working.

By the way, here is Logan and Allie with Santa. Her first, his 9th time. I have another to add, but will add that one later. Can you believe she is awake for this one? The other one she is asleep with Santa and Logan is shushing. Sooo cute.

Trade in

I feel like ranting.
I'd like to trade in my husband. I felt like hitting him with something this morning. He went to bed at 10 o'clock. I tried, but as soon as Allie laid down, she started squrming and getting fussy. Eventually she started crying. Its like she has a favorite spot to sleep and that's that. Anyway, she was fussy until around her next bottle, at 2A.M.!!!! She was sleeping so I actually made it to bed around 2:30. She woke up at 6:30 wanted another bottle, which is good. 4 hours of sleep is so nice. Anyway, Bo gets up and says how tired he is, and that he didn't sleep good last night.

See my reason?

Now on to good news. We took Logan and Allie to the mall yesterday to see Santa. They took 2 good pictures. One she was sleeping and Santa was acting like he was asleep and Logan was shushing the camera. The other she had her eyes open. Omgosh, it was so cute. I already have one as my desktop. I've got to get the other one on here today.

Well, that's it for now.

A simple sandwich

How can a simple sandwich like peanut butter and jelly make someone so happy? Try going 8 months without one. I love them. Now that lil girl is here and I can eat "normal" again, I've eaten them for lunch quite often.
Monday Allie will be 3 weeks old. Hard to believe. I can start back walking on Monday. Like I haven't been walking for 3 weeks. I mean for exercise. We'll just have to do it before supper instead of after like before. With the time change and all, it gets dark around 5:30 and we eat around 6:00.
Allie has had several trips, to church, Wal-Mart, the Quintard Mall, and to Logan's school the other night for open house. I love how everyone says she is so pretty and that she looks like me. Dang, I didn't know I was so cute!!!! LOL!!!

Logan and I were suppose to go see Madagascar 2 today, but Bo had to work and we couldn't go. I don't think he is upset about it. Maybe on Tuesday we can go. He'll be out of school for the holiday. Mama will surely keep Allie for us. I think that goes without saying.

I've been thinking of putting some cereal in her bottles at night, so she will sleep longer. She has been getting up every hour and a half to eat at night. And I can't get any stupid nipples that won't leak so fast that the formula runs down her neck. I found some and they are so small that she can't get the milk out. She feeds for 20 minutes and gets about an ounce.

I wanted to wait until she was at least a month old like Logan, before we done that. I'm sorry if the doctors don't like it, she is hungry and I am exhausted. Something has got to give. Logan is none the worse for us feeding him cereal in with his milk. He is a "normal" 8 year old.

Well, she's a grunting and groaning. Motherhood calls!

Busy week

Boy have we had a busy week. I'm glad I can sit at home today and enjoy my daughter. We came home on the 23rd. I actually was in Wal-Mart on the 24th, getting birthday stuff. Logan's birthday party was on the 26th. We got up and went to church. Quite a few people were surprised to see us there. I really wanted to go. I had said if I felt like it and was up, we'd go. So, we were and I did, so we did.

We came home got a quick lunch at McDonalds and then got everything ready for the party. I had ordered this picture to go on Logans cake. It was suppose to come off the plastic it was on and melt into the icing , but I should have know better. Those people I ordered it from got a ear full if they read my email. We had a great time. Logan got lots of stuff. He thinks he's rich, he got $130, from various people. I guess for an 8 year old that is like being rich. He is so excited his new game comes out today. Monster Jam Urban Assalt. He has been counting down the days and it's finally here.

Allie is doing great. She had her first doctors appointment yesterday. She now weighs 7lbs 11oz. And according to the doctor looks beautiful on paper and even better in person. So, it is so she is a beautiful baby.

Well, things to do. Since I'm not in my fragile state anymore, I'm expected to be the same of mother/housewife/slave! Just joking, I feel go enough to try a little house work, so I will.

Allie is home!

Monday, October 20, 2008
2:47 pm
7lbs 9oz
20in
head full of hair!
Allison Marie(Allie)

I can't believe it, a head full of hair! Blondish brown too. Bo, Logan and I all had very blonde hair when we were born. She is so beautiful. I can't believe I have such a beautiful baby. She is so perfect.

Big Brother is very proud of his sister. He wants to show her off. He even told his substitute teacher that his dad was bringing his sister to pick him up from school yesterday and he didn't get on the bus. We had to go pick him up. OMG!

His birthday is tomorrow. We're having his party after church. He's having a Monster Jam party. I've got to fix his cake today. Mama is picking it up for me. I ordered a photo decoration and it has to be put on there today. It's of his favorite truck Maximum Destruction. He doesn't know it yet and I think he'll flip out over it!

Well, best be going. Things to do. We'll have pictures on here later!

6 Days to go!!!

OH WOW!! This time next week I will be holding my little girl! I can't believe it. I have my last appointment on Thursday. Then blood work done on Friday. In between all of that I have to be sure all last minute things are done, like groceries, laundry done. I'm checking and double checking everything. In some cases, triple checking.

Logan wants to go to Nanny's house today. I was planning on doing some things with him, but he would rather be at her house, so I'm going to let him go. He is still talking to my belly every day. It's funny. When he talks to her, she moves around. She doesn't do that when anybody else talks to her. When Bo talks, she stops moving. It is so funny. Well, to me it is. Bo probably doesn't think so.

I can hardly wait to see my little girl. I'm going to try and post some pictures. Especially of her and Logan. Big brother is as excited as we are!

10 days to go!

We went to the doctor yesterday. I have one more appointment before Allie gets here. Next Thursday at 11 a.m. It seems that I was forgotten yesterday also. My doctor was out of town, fall break at kids school, and I was to be seen by the nurse practitioner(?) Any hoo, Bo went with me because it was too wet for him to work. I was called back for the usual lab work and the lady just took me back to the exam room instead of the NST room. After awhile, I almost fell asleep. Bo knocks on the door and said he was wondering and asked and they finally come to find me. Turns out the lab lady forgot to tell NP that I was waiting in the exam room.

All is well anyway. Blood work, sugar, all the usual things are good. I want to go back to bed this morning, I'm having to fight it. I need to clean my kitchen and do some things around here. I can't have this place a mess this close to baby time.

I've noticed that Allie isn't active like before, she is still packing a punch or kick. But she isn't doing here usual 3 a.m. jigs. She waits until around 6 a.m. She isn't in any sort of pattern. So, I guess it's just whenever the mood strikes her, just like Mom!

Logan said last night, talking to Allie, the cutest thing. He said I love you sister. You only have, looking up at me, how many days, 11 I said. Then back to her, 11 days until you come out of that sack in moms belly and your big brother gets to come see you at the hospital. Then another I love you and he was off to the Monster Jam show.
He is going to be such a good brother. I know they'll be the normal fights, but he is so excited to have a sister. I don't remember being excited to get my younger brother! Still not to excited about him! LOL!!!!

18 days and counting

We have got 18 days and counting. That is if we make it. I had my weekly check up today. She did a pelvic exam and she said I was 1 cm and she could feel the babys head. And by the look on her face, and the fact that she said so, I may not make it until the 20th. Wouldn't that be grand?!

I didn't gain any weight, didn't lose any either. So, that's good. Sugars are good and all that other jazz was good. She said no sex, unless I wanted a baby! Well, duh! She ain't staying in there forever, that's for sure. I plan on kicking her out eventually.

So, now if I can talk Allie into coming on a little sooner, things would be better. As much as I hate knowing this is my last pregnancy, I am so eager to get her here and have my body back. When I feel myself getting sad that she is the last, I just think of other things. I make myself get up and get busy.

My nesting hasn't stopped yet. I scrubbed the bathroom yesterday. I hate those shower doors. But, I got them clean. I feel the need to get in there now and clean out the closet and under the sink. I also have the bar in the kitchen that needs a good once over. Does this ever end? Will I ever get this house as clean as my psycho 2nd personality needs it to be? I sure hope so. Or I'll hurt myself trying!

Can you say emotional rollercoaster?

Throughout this entire pregnancy I have been this ill hornet. Snapping at the least little thing, threatning to choke people, and I've developed road rage. But this morning, as I was hanging somemore of Allie's clothes up, the thought came in my head, I'm about to have another baby. I mean I saw me holding her and I began to cry my eyes out. I had to go sit down and watch some t.v.

What the crap was that about? It's not like this is new, I'm only 24 days away from delivery. I've seen sonogram pictures, felt her move, kick and heard her heartbeat. Why all of a sudden did it just dawn on me that I'm going to have a baby? What made it so real?

Right now, she is pushing as if she is trying to come out of my belly button. I'm wondering if she sees light through there...lol Maybe I'm sleep deprived. Which isn't true, I fell asleep last night before 8:30. And only got up twice to go to the bathroom.

I wonder if other mothers to be have felt like this? I don't remember feeling that with Logan. I also don't remember being this scared of the c-section. I suppose that has to do with the fact that I had never had one and didn't know what to expect. I know now, and that should make it less scary, right?

Well, it's lunch time, I'll contemplate this as I eat some tuna salad and crackers.

Weekly visit

Had the weekly check up today. NST went good, Allie cooperated today. I was in and out of there in 15 minutes. I had my strep-b test. I think that is what it's called. I gained 2 pounds back. I keep losing and gaining those same two. Doesn't anybody out there need them. I'll gladly send them to a good home.

Before the check-up, I went to the hospital and had Allie's car seat installed. They do this once a month and it's free. I think that is wonderful. She will be safe now. So, all we need now is her. And she will be here, unless God has other plans, October 20th, sometime after 12 o'clock noon.

So this means I have to do without food and water all morning. That is going to be hard. I'm sure I can do it though. I'm tough, after all I'm a mother! We can do anything!

I went shopping and bought her a onsie. Like she needed it. But I have only bought her one and it says Lil Sis. This one says Pretty and Perfect like mommy! I love it. I wanted another one that said I can't talk, but I have attitude. But I figure, why advertise something so obvious.

Clarify

I need to clarify something. The widget at the top says 35 weeks. That is going by my due date. The one at the bottom, is going by my c-section date. Just so no one thinks I don't know my due date or what week I'm on. Believe me I know. 26 days to go. I'm so excited.

I felt a pretty good contraction last night about 7 p.m. And then another one this morning around 6 a.m. I'm still not sleeping good. I'm up at least 3 times going to the bathroom. I think she has dropped. I seem to be having trouble walking and I'm going so much more than usual. I also have been having the "nesting" syndrome. My mama and sister-in-law come and cleaned the carpets on Monday. Things still need to be "purged". We've got so much stuff that we don't need.

I have an appointment tomorrow morning. Before that I'm going to the hospital to get Allie's car seat installed. They do this only once a month. This will be my last chance before she gets here.
Logan has been on green everyday this month except for Monday. He was on yellow for talking. Man, I thought he would make it. He has done so much better here lately. I'm so proud of him.

2nd Baby Shower

I had my 2nd baby shower on Saturday. It was great. Allie got lots of stuff. Diapers, bottles, blankets, and some new outfits. She has so many clothes, and I can't say that any of them aren't cute. Little girls have such a good selection of clothes.

Today we are going to clean carpet and the house. Mama, Shelli and I are going to be busy. They won't get here until later.

I'm so excited, 28 days, 4 weeks. Logan and I have three countdowns going, till Allie gets here, his birthday and then when the new Monster Jam video game comes out. He is more excited about the video game than anything I think. I think he has gotten bored with the waiting on his sister to come. He's more of a right now kinda kid. 9 months seems like a long time to us, it must seem like an eternity to him.

Well, I better get up and get some stuff out of the way for the carpet cleaners. I'll update again after my appointment on Thursday.

35th week check up

Had a busy day yesterday. I had two appointments. At my doctor appointment, I didn't even get to see the doctor. Lil' Miss Uncooperative, as predidicted, would not be still in a spot that would let them get a good consistant heartbeat. I knew she was ok because she was moving.

I was sent across the street to the hospital to L&D to be monitered. Once I got there, she decided to be still for us. The nurse said it was because I had eaten lunch. Next week, I'm going to take a snack with me. After that, I was told the doctor was at the hospital doing a c-section, so I just made my appointment for next week and came home.

I had to call mama to get Logan from school. Allie is already messing with big bro. I can just imagine what it will be like with her here. Can't help but smile!

Logan has been on green this whole month. He has not been in trouble one day! I am so proud of him. I just pray he keeps it up. He's been asking alot of questions lately. Who's going to take care of me when sister gets here? I told him that I would only be in the hospital for a few days. I did my best to reassure him that he is not going to be forgotten. With only 32 days left until she is delivered, it's getting more real for all of us.

Monday, Mama and Shelli are coming to help me get the house clean. I know they will know what I want. After all, they've been here before. They know what I'm talking about.

We're having another baby shower Saturday. We also have a birthday party to go to. After this shower, what's left to buy is up to us. I hope we get the rest of what we need. It isn't much, but what is left is very much needed. Diaper bag, bottles, more diapers, things like that.

Soapbox

I feel like getting on my soapbox. This pregnancy is totally different than when I was pregnant with Logan. I seem to have a very short fuse. Some things are ticking me off and I want to get them off my chest.

1. It seems that the more I read on certain web sites, they look down on women who have c-sections. This, to my knowledge isn't elective surgery. There are good medical reasons for having them. My reason was, lets just say, very necessary for the health of the both of us. And if my doctor, who knows me, in this area, better than anyone else, says to have another, then I will have another. Look down on me if you want. I want a healthy baby and to be around to enjoy my daughter.

2. Breastfeeding. Everywhere you turn you're looked down on if you don't breastfeed. Yes, I've heard all the reasons to breastfeed. I also know my body. I can't. It's not that I don't want to, I physically can't. I have no choice but to bottle feed. My son was a bottle fed baby and he is so smart that he makes me feel stupid. He's healthy. He is not suffering from being bottle fed. He wasn't deprived in any way.

I just wish certain "experts" would give unbiased opinions, not their own opinion. I do not look down on a woman that wishes to go through labor without drugs, so don't look down on me because I choose to listen to my doctor. I don't look down on women who breastfeed. I think that is great! God has given them that and I haven't been given that, so don't talk to me like I'm ignorant, or a bad mother.

Whew! I feel better.

33 week check up

Well, today was a fun filled day. I got to the doctors at about 9am and didn't get out until after 11 o'clock. My precious little princess wouldn't cooperate. A little too much like mommie! She kept moving during my nonstress test. That on top of having the hiccups made for a long day. When I finally got to see the doctor she had a cold and was sneezing her head off. She asked if I wanted to go ahead and schedule the c-section. I said sure, why not. So, October 20, 2008 will be Allison's birthday. 6 days before her brothers.

So, that gives me a few days to recoup before Logan's birthday party. I say October 20th with the understanding that God and Allie may have different plans. So, I have less than 6 weeks to get ready. 40 days. OMG, can I do it? Yes, I can!

All is well other than her not cooperating this morning.

"Nesting"

I think that is what it's called. No matter how much I clean, it isn't clean enough. No matter how organized everything is, it isn't quite enough. Even though everything is in it's place, it seems like there should be a better place for it.
Is that nesting or am I going crazy? This along with the never ending hunger I've had lately is really getting to me.

I am on this gestational diabetes diet and can't have sweets, and only limited carbs. But all I want to eat is pizza, cookies, cake and chocolate anytime, anywhere. This is getting harder and harder to control.

I went to a bridal shower yesterday after church. I had 5 sausage balls, 1 and a half pieces of cake, with chocolate icing and 2 small glasses of punch. Those aren't on the diet, I don't think.

There are snickerdoodles under a cake plate on the kitchen table. And with an open floor plan you can see them from anywhere in our living room. They are like eyes on a painting, the follow me where ever I go. Is that creepy or what?

I do good when I have someone around to keep me company. I don't indulge in things like that. I just seem to have no will power when I'm alone. That is one reason I miss work so much. I so don't want to gain the 25 pounds that I've lost back. I want to keep them off, and take a few more with it. Having a healthy baby is my motivation for now, after she gets here, what will I have? A big ole butt again!

Maybe I'm trying to "clean" the cravings away? Could that be it? Only time will tell. I'll go see if I can clean this latest craving away. Look out kitchen bar, here I come!

Week 32

Things went well yesterday. I gained 1 pound. So my total loss this pregnancy is 25 pounds. My sister in law still can't believe I've lost weight. I guess that "diet" the doctor has me on is a good one. I can't wait to see what size I'll be wearing after Allison gets here. Right now I weigh 198 pounds. Of course, I'll give up the wheat bread for a big honkin doughnut from Lamars.
I've let everyone who will listen know that I want there to be some doughnuts, I don't care what kind, as long as they are from Lamars, to be in my room when I come from recovery.

Anyway, back to the doctor visit. The NST went fine. Allison cooperated, she moved around some. I got to listen to her heartbeat for about 20 minutes. When I got to see the doctor, she let me know that she wants me to come back every week. So, I have another appointment on Wednesday morning. Since I have gestational diabetes, I guess this is her or something new they are doing.

I'm going to try and get some pictures on here soon. I've been checking out other blogs, man, mine is plain. I have that one picture of Logan on there.

The baby's room will be done this afternoon. Bo is going to pick up the baby bed and changing table today. I can hardly wait to get it in here. This room looks good, but not complete.

I'll update again after my visit next Wednesday.

Lazy day

I had a lazy day today. Logan finally come home this afternoon from his Nanny's, my mother's. He went there Saturday morning and didn't want to come home after church on Sunday, so he didn't. Can you say spoiled?
I just laid around and took it easy. Got up late, 8:00 and then took a nap around 2:00. Allie has been moving slower the past couple of days. She's getting bigger and isn't moving as much. She has her times though. She just likes to pick a time when I would rather be sleeping. But I am not complaining. I just lay there and smile as she does her ballet.

I go to the doctor tomorrow morning. I get to have a NST done. I never had one with Logan. Dr. Ballard said to plan on staying at least an hour for that. Then I get to do my regular 2 week visit. Again, I'm not complaining. I get to hear the heartbeat for awhile. Who can ever get tired of hearing that.

Bo went to Grace Baptist Church this morning to help the Civil Defense out. They are housing some evacuees from Lousiania. He said there were only about 70 people there. Some were already leaving to try and get back home. I couldn't imagine having to live like that. No matter how much I felt like that was home, I think I would try to find another place to call home. To have to worry about things like that June to November every year! UGH!

First post

I wanted somewhere to write about my pregnancy and life in general. I'm sure this isn't going to be an award winning blog, but it wasn't meant to be.
I was a working mom, until I was laid off on July 31st. Now I'm a stay at home mom who is expecting. Allison will be our second and last child. I'm trying to enjoy every day. Logan, my 7 year old is so excited to have a sister. I will write about how this pregnancy came about later. It is a great story, I think.